[ seriously makes her slow to a stop, biting her lip as she looks that way. not down, certainly not at steve, but. away. ]

I don't know? I don't know. [ she rushes this next bit ] I guess- With Jonathan gone, and Will, and El, it just- It feels like we're outnumbered all of a sudden? And I know we're supposed to be optimistic, I know it's done and we should move on, but that's what we thought last year, isn't it?

What if something happens, and we're not... actually good?

[ this is nancy wheeler not being able to admit she still feels guilty ]