( words do tend to get a little lost, when they're paired with heat and teeth and breath and tongue. he got the yes, more or less. what the affirmative was for, he had no idea. maybe it didn't even matter! yes she was tight, yes she was good, almost almost almost. yes just to the sensation because fucking hell, the smell and feeling and sensation of her is blissful and yes is quick and dirty but it gets the point across that it all feels good. he grins, somehow both greedy and breathless, into her mouth. pressing his chin up to demand more despite the fact it makes clarification infinitely more difficult. it's just he didn't think he needed clarification. until he gets it. and then his heartbeat is a wild jangle and his expression gets soft and fond and hopeful in all the horny desperation.
because it could have just been horny Madlibs, both of them so out of their mind nothing has to really make sense. it feels good and being his girl when he's nearly buried inside of her is just a predictable thing to say. Nancy doesn't have to spare oxygen to agree, nor cleave herself away from his mouth to make sure he understands. she's right, even tilting her weight upward to press her forehead to his made his arm wind around her just a little tighter. it could have just been about the sex, is all. it's been so long. nobody would have held it against either party or they just wanted to get down to it, now that they decided they were ready. only, maybe that was the whole point of taking it slow. that they'd be sure they wanted more than just how good they made each other feel in the heat of things. they wanted each other all the time. high points and low points and grumpy from not enough sleep and harried about finals half functional over 3am truckstop pancakes and everything in between. he didn't know he needed that reminder that it's all of it, he has all of her, until she says it. more than says it, doubles down. yours laced with enough ecstasy that it almost feels like she's getting off on knowing it, nearly as much as the twisting at her clit and the way she's grinding against his cock. )
Nancy, ( he moans, and there's so many things pinned into that word, it's almost impossible to isolate any of them. arousal, need, delight, feelings that never really went anywhere and used to fall out of him so easy and god he wants to say it. just tell her. it's got to be obvious. he loves her, god he loves her, when she's heady-needy and her thighs are shaking with her determination to take every inch of him inside of her — or when she's wrinkling her nose at a book or frowning in that Nancy way when some old pensioner is being an asshole to the waitress a few tables down. he loves her, Steve thinks he never really stopped and maybe he doesn't know how to stop. and being with her just like this, he doesn't want to learn. he wants to say it, he just... can't. it catches at the back of his teeth, locked there. maybe sex isn't the only thing they need to take it slow with. he's not going to ruin things by admitting things she may not be ready for yet. so what if it's true? it'll still be true, when she's ready to say it too.
and then she goes on that ramble. I need it. Just take it. and part of him is conflicted, wanting to watch her ride him. he's always liked it, and he knows Nancy likes it too. the smug little self assured smile she gets, her palms on his shoulders or her arms curled around his neck with her tits in his face as she breaks. but the way she's shaking makes him think she's not ready for that, and he's not sure either of them can wait until she is. Nancy has done more than her fair share, here. he's gotta do his part, too. his brain is a little hazy on how to execute that instruction, but there's no way he won't give Nancy what she wants when he's practically out of his mind wanting the same. )
Need it, ( he repeats, and it could just be broken caveman grunting, replicating sounds he hears without really comprehending the meaning. but as his grip around Nancy tightens so he can lay her back and bear down on top of her, mouth washing over her neck and breast and heartbeat in fleeting worship, it's just a momentary reprieve before he aligns his hips to sink just that bit deeper. fuck, he missed this, the way they fit. when he presses down between her legs he can feel his cock inside her, and it's always made him a fucking madman. he rocks a shallow stroke, feeling the way she clenches exquisitely around him with a moan. ) Need it how, baby? Tell me, tell me, Nancy. ( he asks but he doesn't wait for an answer. she'll have to decide on more or faster or harder or slower as he starts to move. shallow and slow to start, as she acclimates to him buried this deep inside her again. it's a start, but whatever she wants she can have. because fuck she feels so good like this, pressed against him and with him and around him. )
[ nancy smiles when she feels him move to switch their positions, still holding on tight even once she's settled under him, like there's only so much distance she's willing to spare at this point. both of her hands sink into his hair, gripping tight, ready to drag him back up from where he's kissing along her chest, but she doesn't manage to make it that far. ]
Oh, fuck.
[ it's definitely for the best that she isn't on top of him right now, because her brain function all but cuts out once he rocks into her that last bit, letting her finally feel him. like, really feel him. all of him. she probably would have ended up dropping down on top of him, but- not in a sexy, intimate way. more like her arms and core muscles would have checked out in favor of curling up against his chest. this is much better, because he sinks into her, and her brain function drops down to "horny idiot", and muscle memory takes over. her hips pitch up, thighs falling open wider, and one of her hands slips down to the back of his neck to brace herself that way. some part of her must have realized that hair tugging gets much less enjoyable when its with both hands, so. yeah. just the one is scratching through it, grabbing tighter again once he starts to move.
need it how?
great question. brilliant question. unfortunately the ability to use her words is still broken, so at first all she manages is a low moan between panting breaths, thighs squeezing his sides, heels digging into his lower back. ]
Steve. [ she's definitely whining. already. damn. focus, wheeler. ] You feel so good. Making me feel so good. Shit, I can't- [ words. she can't words. she's trying though. she's also starting to move with him, using her legs to help her rock her hips up every time he presses in, body curling up a bit. ] Slow, just like this. But- harder, please, I need it harder. [ she's definitely not going to try and verbalize how much she likes feeling the deep stretch of him bottomed out inside her every time he thrusts in, or how it's making her feel fucking crazy, knowing that she'd feel the outline of him if she pressed on her lower belly right now. it's just like- a lot, to try and put into words. filthy in a way she's not totally sure she's capable of just yet. ]
( considering where they started — like when they were clacking heads trying to find the right angle to kiss each other and both getting the logistics horribly wrong, or when Nancy fell off the bed and nearly took him with her when she misjudged her straddle velocity — it feels like they've finally managed to get back into the swing of it. find each others rhythm. all coming back to them now. as Nancy spreads her legs wide to take him without even being asked. or shifting from two greedy fists in his hair to just the one, though, honestly he didn't entirely hate the hair pulling? food for thought. or how he knows to keep some weight down at his knees, because he needs some kind of leverage to move. find the rhythm that makes her see stars and his toes curl because they both need it bad, after waiting so goddamn long.
they might not be to the well oiled machine stage of knowing each other like they used to be, at least not yet. but the rust is coming off and it's a relief that it isn't that hard to find their way back to each other. and while he thinks there's definitely more exciting things they'd like to do to each other and positions they're curious to try, maybe sweet and simple for their second first time is a good place to start. missionary works for a reason, doesn't it? and while harder might be easier if he were standing — or she was on that table, how sturdy is that table, and if it's not sturdy how much would they have to pay if they break that table — it isn't as if he can't sink deep into her just like this. he might have to spare one elbow to balance himself on top of her, but the other hand is free to fish for hers. pin it above her head as his cock sinks inside her and the filthy little smack of skin on skin starts to echo, as his cock works inside her and she arches and bucks up to take it. )
Fuck, Nance — ( is his first choked affirmation, trying to fit the words between thrusts. ) Okay, no more talking, ( he suggests, because maybe Nancy is not the only one regressing to horny idiot emergency power. he was frankly a bully to make her try and talk through that!!! as if to reinforce the no talking, Steve doesn't so much kiss her as lands his open mouth close to hers, groan-y throat-y moans and all. look, it's a start. surely both of them can agree that the pace they're starting to hit is more important than words right now. because the winding up heat in his gut as she clenches around him is burning all over and everywhere, and not that slowly either. finally the more more more they've been missing. needing.
and he wants to feather this out as long as he can even though it's practically a fools errand, like trying to keep a fire from catching when you've doused all the dry kindling in kerosene. )
[ it might be a silly thing to be focused on at the moment, but steve's hand finds hers and holds on tight and nancy feels a rush of something just shy of overwhelming fill her chest. it's not arousal, ( ..okay, it's a little bit arousal, because the easy way he pins her hand to the bed without making her feel trapped is just A Lot ) but it's enough to make her squeeze her eyes shut and her exhale rush out in a gasp. one that ends in a quick laugh, a tiny bit delirious. she used to be embarrassed by how much she liked holding steve's hand whenever they were in bed together, just because it seemed too stereotypical and too cliche and too blahblahblah. but it wasn't something that was restricted to the bedroom- he was almost always reaching for her hand as soon as he got the chance, and eventually she fell into the habit, too. and it almost always made her smile in a way that was frustratingly bashful. frustrating to her, at least. like it was childish, maybe. grow up. not that it ever stopped her from reaching for his hand as soon as she could anyway, or try wiggle her fingers free when he was the one to tangle their fingers up, because she really did like it. she actually kinda loved it.
and then they broke up. and jonathan never held her hand. not when they were in bed, or in the car, or at the movies, or anywhere else. jonathan was.. not a hand-holder. and as soon as she realized that, the way steve used to hold her hand very quickly climbed close to the top of the list of things she missed most about being with him. and unlearning the habit was something that made her heart ache.
and no, it's absolutely not the first time he's held her hand since they got back together or anything - she's had plenty of breath-catchy moments already because of that - but this is very different. so yeah, she gets caught up in it for a long moment, holding on tight, the hand in his hair gripping tighter, too.
okay, no more talking. nancy's so far ahead of him already, but she nods anyway, a quick bob that slows down once he's leaning down closer, makes her lips drag up over his and back down. and steve- fuck, there's another other thing she missed, but she didn't realize it until right this second - the fucking sounds he makes when they start to really get into things like this. tommy and carol might have teased the hell out of her for getting loud during their first time together, but it's not like she was the only one, okay!! and somehow, the way she remembers it back then hardly compares to the way he sounds now. it makes her pull at his hair harder without even really meaning to, high at the crown of his head where it's thickest. her body tightens around his cock too, and she's pretty sure he's going to be sore where her heels have slid down to the small of his beck, digging in harder. but that's fair, honestly, because she's going to be sore, too. basically everywhere. ]
Yeah, yeah, yeah- [ it's possibly a step up from the way she's been "responding" to each of his thrusts with staccato uh, uh, uhs, but she isn't really all that clued into whether or not she's actually saying words at the moment, no. she's mostly focused on the fact that she can practically feel him in her guts every time he bottoms out, and that his chest hair adds a friction against the peaked buds of her nipples that she so wasn't expecting but could definitely get used to, and that her fingers have started to alternate between trying to squirm out from between his and holding on tighter. which is what usually happens when she's hit this point, edging along her first orgasm. there's an impatient part of her that wants to rush it, get her hand free so she can reach down and rub fast circles over her clit until she's coming, but she knows she doesn't actually need it. after their first few times together, they learned pretty quickly that whatever pace he's set that makes her start squirming like she is now is all she actually needs to get there. but knowing that doesn't mean she's not going to act needy and whine for it. ..right after she picks her head up enough to sink her teeth into his bottom lip and tug down so she can lick into his mouth, kissing him deep. ] Ooh, Steve! [ it's canon!!!! it's also why they rented a hotel room, right? so she's not trying to be quiet. ] Steve, you're gonna make me come, fuck, fuck, don't stop-
( he's not sure what that desperate, heady laugh is about — couldn't possibly connect it to catching her hand in his. there's half a moment spared to charming puppy confusion, but whatever it was it probably doesn't need to be hashed out when he's balls deep inside of her. Steve just huffs a half breath that could almost be a laugh, too, letting his tongue trace inside her lower lip and along her tongue to try and catch a taste of whatever delighted her. doesn't quite work, but Nancy herself tastes good. a mix of red hots she'd insisted on as a driving snack and the Coke that she'd made wrinkled nose faces about even though she insisted she liked New Coke over stopping to get something else. and below that Nancy just tastes like... Nancy. he's never quite gotten over how much he likes the way Nancy tastes, so getting to lap her back onto his tastebuds is almost as enjoy able as the clench of her around him every time he's buried to the hilt. whatever tickled her, he'll ask about it later. no talking, right? that was the deal. twining their fingers as his strokes start to even out and his hipbones start to do that sexy-tingle from the impact of their bodies together can do the talking for now.
or, scratch that. because Nancy yanks on a good handful of his hair, and it earns a ragged sound and a drawn out, slurred fuuuuuuuuuckkkk of approval. his perfect hair is going to have a fist print in it after this, thanks to the tugging and the sweat caught at the roots. Steve can't be bothered to care about how the incredible hold of his hairspray will only make the disaster worse when they come up for air. he can only care about the slide of his cock, keeping his pace sharp and hitting her in that spot just right that makes her toes curl. he's only got so long; there's so much pent up frustration and desire from not being with anyone, compounded by being with Nancy and not being with her like this, all to prove some stupid point. what was he thinking. jesus christ. that they have spent weeks not doing exactly this seems to be a complete moral failing, because god she feels so perfect. she's always felt like this. deeper, better, more than any girl he's ever been with. did they really prove anything by managing to keep their hands out of each other's pants all this time, or just make it harder for themselves when they finally let themselves go?
because it does feel difficult, to focus on the movement, and not blowing his load before they can get Nancy anywhere close. fingering her first and stretching her out was a slow-and-steady sort of thing, and now that they're off to the races Steve is desperate not to cum too quickly and have things be over when they've been waiting so long. and it sure as shit doesn't help when Nancy starts to wriggle and keen against him, because Steve remembers exactly what that means. remembering exactly how Nancy moves and sounds as she gets close to orgasm is a lot for him right now. biting, and telling him she's close, and exactly how loud and turned on and demanding she's being? that's a lot for him right now too. too much in fact. he feels it like a rubber band being snapped, breaking suddenly and sharply and a little painfully if you're on the wrong side of things. he's not, at least, but coming with stars behind his eyes makes him stall out a second and the lady literally just said don't stop!!!)
Shit, Nance, ( he gasps, hips jutting and spasming a little as the worst of his orgasm hits like a truck, threads of muscle in his back tight and his weight falling almost entirely on top of her as he fucks her jaggedly through it before he stalls, like a train stopped at the tracks. very much blowing the don't of don't stop. he feels liquid and warm and lost in her and it is tempting to just swim in all that ecstasy, but as the brunt of it clears his brain starts to work again. slowly coming back to life, piece by piece. ) Sorry, ( he moans, offering a messy smattering of kisses as his body remembers how to function and the important orders he was just delivered. he... didn't want to cum first. that wasn't quite how he wanted this to go. BUT. he's not soft yet, there's still time before he's completely useless. his strokes are more shallow, now, interested mostly in ending as deep inside her as he can manage and the satisfying pressure of them coming together, over and over and over, that seems to drive her completely mental. ) C'mon, baby. Please, Nance. Come on.
( he needs her to finish too. if his cock can't manage it then his mouth will. he is not going to lie around here waiting for his dick to work again to hear Nancy Wheeler orgasm for the first time in years. it just is not happening. )
oh. some things really are impossible to forget, quite literally, because she definitely knows that tone. she knows what it means when his voice does that! when it sounds like his jaw's refusing to make way for the words to get out, and his breathing gets a little hiccupy, and she's split right down the middle on this one. she feels her body slink away from the tipping point just enough to make her squirm under him again, involuntary, in a way he'd probably tease her for in a different context, where he meant to pull her back. which is frustrating!! but the other half of her is still a bit delirious from how turned on she is, and the way he fucked into her those last couple of times before losing it and sinking down on top of her was more than enough to keep her from feeling anything close to actual frustration. because it turns out she wanted to see him lose it just as badly as he wanted to see her do the same.
her fingers relax their grip in his hair so she can scratch along his scalp, and she tips her head to the side to kiss his wrist, panting out a few breaths she didn't realize she was keeping in. she's trying to keep the whining and moving under him to a minimum because she knows it's going to be a moment - she's only been with two people but both of them seem to lose brain function right after they come, it's something she's just accepted - but it's hard. she was sofuckingclose.
and he knows it too, because he's apologizing. and she's trying to kiss him back properly, but her breathless smile is making it difficult, she knows - ] Shh, s'okay. [ - because it is, it's okay. she knows they're not done here, not by a long shot, and if anything? she knows he's about to make it up to her, sooo. what's left to forgive, really?
although she wasn't expecting him to make it up to her immediately, so that first rock of his hips makes her suck in a breath, face scrunching up a little bit. she's just a little confused?? ] You-? [ she's used to there being more downtime, honestly!! and the lack of said downtime isn't a bad thing, like, at all, but she just didn't think.......... but, he is, so! ] --oh, fuck, okay. Yeah. [ look, she's not about to question it. she might later, somehow, but right now she's trying to shove her thinky-brain aside so she can get back to where she was just a second ago. right back on the edge. and luckily it really does drive her insane, the shift in things. how he's pressed closer to her now, not even pulling his hips away very far before rocking back into her. she knows, realistically, that the way his cock fills her every time his hips hit flush against hers doesn't feel any different than it did before, but something is different. and it's not just the fact that he's giving her much more friction against her clit now, this way.
... okay, maybe that's a big part of it. but the buildup is more of a slow burn this time, has her looping her arm around his neck to hold on tight and keep him close, and she rocks her hips to match his rhythm as she gets closer again, almost without meaning to. maybe they still have some catching up to do before they're perfectly in sync, but some part of her must remember, because it's not long before she's tensing up under him again, jaw slack, her thighs tucking up higher and a little tighter around his waist again, shifting the angle.
there's also something about him begging her to come that's doing it for her, too. who'da thought? ]
Yeah, that's it, that's it. [ her hand is gripping his tight again, the fingers in his hair, too. like she has to hold onto something to keep from completely losing her mind. she's whining again, although she can't quite move around as much under him with the way he's pinning her to the bed, and that's adding something new and confusing and perfect to this, too. she cries when she finally comes, a sound that's almost a sob with relief, every muscle she has any control over tightening up, thighs trembling against his sides. she tries to keep moving on him as much as she can, but it's more of a grind than the same rocking from before. ] Sh-Shit, ohmygod. [ her palm flattens to settle at the back of his neck, squeezing as she shudders against him again, whimpering. but she resists relaxing beyond that just yet, heels digging into his lower back again. ] Stay. Just like this, c'mere. [ he's pretty much already laying on top of her, but she still winds her arm around him to drag him down more, wanting to feel him everywhere. her brain feels like cotton candy, too. in a good way, though. the best way. ]
( well, there are two options. more downtime to the point of they gotta wait for his dick to check back in, use something else to finish the job. or they can make use of what little he's got left. it's a hard headed determination that is leading the charge, here, because as good as it feels there's a prickle of discomfort, like when he eats that fourth piece of pizza when he really knows he shouldn't. too much of a good thing is supposed to be bad but there's guilty pleasure in it, too. his body might want to check out now that he's hit his own finish line, his brain just refuses to.
they've got a timeline, here. between what is left of being hard quickly turns into pushing rope. so his encore is distinctly more desperate than before, and it isn't like he'd been lacking on that front the first round. it's just she was so close. used to be they were pretty in sync, with these things. he could hold back just long enough, or they'd work her up first so getting her to crash through a finish was just a bit of fingers or maybe the back of his palm pressed hard against her clit. he knows the sounds she's making, the wild, uncomfortable way she's moving, the flush crawling up her neck and the pinpoint of her pupils, Steve knows she's close. he's not just going to call it quits before they get there, even if it isn't quite how he wanted their second first to go.
the problem before was expecting perfection, that they could just jump back into the thick of it without putting the time in. like running a marathon right after they got cleared to ditch the crutches. throwing that out the window, focusing on making the most of what they've got — maybe it's not perfect, maybe Foreigner isn't providing a soft crooning ambiance, maybe it isn't some first magical moment. to be fair their first time wasn't perfect either, and that was before a girl got munched in his pool. perfect is more or less impossible. making the best of being with Nancy again, well... that he can do. hell, it's pretty easy to do, when she still melts under his touch. still knows just how she likes to jut back and slide against him, knows how to hold herself in that spot that makes her body sing. it's sloppy and fraught and desperate and delightful. and in the end, it's enough. he feels it before it hits, the way the inner muscles of her thighs go tight and then shiver-shudder clench as she falls to pieces under him and around him all at once. )
Yes, just... just like that, Nancy. God you're so fucking — ( sexy? beautiful? everything he could imagine and more? yes. whatever he meant to articulate, he can't, especially as the exhaustion of completion hits. the movement can stop and he can just get lost in the afterglow, which is pretty afterglow-y, right now. used to be, Steve worried more, about laying on top of her. if anything it makes more sense to worry about it now than it did then, because he was a lot more tooth-picky in high school. that swimmer diet kicked his ass until he didn't have to bother anymore. there's a great deal more of him to bear down on her, now, it's just he couldn't care less. Nancy will whine if her legs start to fall asleep. she's a lot less fragile than she looks, and fragile she does look, sort of like one of those porcelain dolls his mom keeps in her closet only with a much more modern haircut. (some post nut thoughts are best to keep to oneself.) he can wind her close and be her heavy boy blanket at least long enough for their brains to turn back on again.
his mouth hurts from all the kissing. it's not a bad kind of sting. he still uses his teeth to catch a spot under her jaw close to her neck, that spot that always smells most like Nancy after they fuck. for important, not at all caveman reasons, he really likes that spot. his brain doesn't really have the capacity for coherent thought just yet, it just wants to double down in nancynancynancy. that spot always helps with that. having his mouth busy is a good way to keep the post sex i love you to himself. maybe it is obvious, at this point. he feels like the dumb dopey expression he wears when he looks at her sort of gives it away. still, holding onto that a little longer since they've technically only been dating again a few months? feels like a good call. )
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because it could have just been horny Madlibs, both of them so out of their mind nothing has to really make sense. it feels good and being his girl when he's nearly buried inside of her is just a predictable thing to say. Nancy doesn't have to spare oxygen to agree, nor cleave herself away from his mouth to make sure he understands. she's right, even tilting her weight upward to press her forehead to his made his arm wind around her just a little tighter. it could have just been about the sex, is all. it's been so long. nobody would have held it against either party or they just wanted to get down to it, now that they decided they were ready. only, maybe that was the whole point of taking it slow. that they'd be sure they wanted more than just how good they made each other feel in the heat of things. they wanted each other all the time. high points and low points and grumpy from not enough sleep and harried about finals half functional over 3am truckstop pancakes and everything in between. he didn't know he needed that reminder that it's all of it, he has all of her, until she says it. more than says it, doubles down. yours laced with enough ecstasy that it almost feels like she's getting off on knowing it, nearly as much as the twisting at her clit and the way she's grinding against his cock. )
Nancy, ( he moans, and there's so many things pinned into that word, it's almost impossible to isolate any of them. arousal, need, delight, feelings that never really went anywhere and used to fall out of him so easy and god he wants to say it. just tell her. it's got to be obvious. he loves her, god he loves her, when she's heady-needy and her thighs are shaking with her determination to take every inch of him inside of her — or when she's wrinkling her nose at a book or frowning in that Nancy way when some old pensioner is being an asshole to the waitress a few tables down. he loves her, Steve thinks he never really stopped and maybe he doesn't know how to stop. and being with her just like this, he doesn't want to learn. he wants to say it, he just... can't. it catches at the back of his teeth, locked there. maybe sex isn't the only thing they need to take it slow with. he's not going to ruin things by admitting things she may not be ready for yet. so what if it's true? it'll still be true, when she's ready to say it too.
and then she goes on that ramble. I need it. Just take it. and part of him is conflicted, wanting to watch her ride him. he's always liked it, and he knows Nancy likes it too. the smug little self assured smile she gets, her palms on his shoulders or her arms curled around his neck with her tits in his face as she breaks. but the way she's shaking makes him think she's not ready for that, and he's not sure either of them can wait until she is. Nancy has done more than her fair share, here. he's gotta do his part, too. his brain is a little hazy on how to execute that instruction, but there's no way he won't give Nancy what she wants when he's practically out of his mind wanting the same. )
Need it, ( he repeats, and it could just be broken caveman grunting, replicating sounds he hears without really comprehending the meaning. but as his grip around Nancy tightens so he can lay her back and bear down on top of her, mouth washing over her neck and breast and heartbeat in fleeting worship, it's just a momentary reprieve before he aligns his hips to sink just that bit deeper. fuck, he missed this, the way they fit. when he presses down between her legs he can feel his cock inside her, and it's always made him a fucking madman. he rocks a shallow stroke, feeling the way she clenches exquisitely around him with a moan. ) Need it how, baby? Tell me, tell me, Nancy. ( he asks but he doesn't wait for an answer. she'll have to decide on more or faster or harder or slower as he starts to move. shallow and slow to start, as she acclimates to him buried this deep inside her again. it's a start, but whatever she wants she can have. because fuck she feels so good like this, pressed against him and with him and around him. )
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Oh, fuck.
[ it's definitely for the best that she isn't on top of him right now, because her brain function all but cuts out once he rocks into her that last bit, letting her finally feel him. like, really feel him. all of him. she probably would have ended up dropping down on top of him, but- not in a sexy, intimate way. more like her arms and core muscles would have checked out in favor of curling up against his chest. this is much better, because he sinks into her, and her brain function drops down to "horny idiot", and muscle memory takes over. her hips pitch up, thighs falling open wider, and one of her hands slips down to the back of his neck to brace herself that way. some part of her must have realized that hair tugging gets much less enjoyable when its with both hands, so. yeah. just the one is scratching through it, grabbing tighter again once he starts to move.
need it how?
great question. brilliant question. unfortunately the ability to use her words is still broken, so at first all she manages is a low moan between panting breaths, thighs squeezing his sides, heels digging into his lower back. ]
Steve. [ she's definitely whining. already. damn. focus, wheeler. ] You feel so good. Making me feel so good. Shit, I can't- [ words. she can't words. she's trying though. she's also starting to move with him, using her legs to help her rock her hips up every time he presses in, body curling up a bit. ] Slow, just like this. But- harder, please, I need it harder. [ she's definitely not going to try and verbalize how much she likes feeling the deep stretch of him bottomed out inside her every time he thrusts in, or how it's making her feel fucking crazy, knowing that she'd feel the outline of him if she pressed on her lower belly right now. it's just like- a lot, to try and put into words. filthy in a way she's not totally sure she's capable of just yet. ]
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they might not be to the well oiled machine stage of knowing each other like they used to be, at least not yet. but the rust is coming off and it's a relief that it isn't that hard to find their way back to each other. and while he thinks there's definitely more exciting things they'd like to do to each other and positions they're curious to try, maybe sweet and simple for their second first time is a good place to start. missionary works for a reason, doesn't it? and while harder might be easier if he were standing — or she was on that table, how sturdy is that table, and if it's not sturdy how much would they have to pay if they break that table — it isn't as if he can't sink deep into her just like this. he might have to spare one elbow to balance himself on top of her, but the other hand is free to fish for hers. pin it above her head as his cock sinks inside her and the filthy little smack of skin on skin starts to echo, as his cock works inside her and she arches and bucks up to take it. )
Fuck, Nance — ( is his first choked affirmation, trying to fit the words between thrusts. ) Okay, no more talking, ( he suggests, because maybe Nancy is not the only one regressing to horny idiot emergency power. he was frankly a bully to make her try and talk through that!!! as if to reinforce the no talking, Steve doesn't so much kiss her as lands his open mouth close to hers, groan-y throat-y moans and all. look, it's a start. surely both of them can agree that the pace they're starting to hit is more important than words right now. because the winding up heat in his gut as she clenches around him is burning all over and everywhere, and not that slowly either. finally the more more more they've been missing. needing.
and he wants to feather this out as long as he can even though it's practically a fools errand, like trying to keep a fire from catching when you've doused all the dry kindling in kerosene. )
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and then they broke up. and jonathan never held her hand. not when they were in bed, or in the car, or at the movies, or anywhere else. jonathan was.. not a hand-holder. and as soon as she realized that, the way steve used to hold her hand very quickly climbed close to the top of the list of things she missed most about being with him. and unlearning the habit was something that made her heart ache.
and no, it's absolutely not the first time he's held her hand since they got back together or anything - she's had plenty of breath-catchy moments already because of that - but this is very different. so yeah, she gets caught up in it for a long moment, holding on tight, the hand in his hair gripping tighter, too.
okay, no more talking. nancy's so far ahead of him already, but she nods anyway, a quick bob that slows down once he's leaning down closer, makes her lips drag up over his and back down. and steve- fuck, there's another other thing she missed, but she didn't realize it until right this second - the fucking sounds he makes when they start to really get into things like this. tommy and carol might have teased the hell out of her for getting loud during their first time together, but it's not like she was the only one, okay!! and somehow, the way she remembers it back then hardly compares to the way he sounds now. it makes her pull at his hair harder without even really meaning to, high at the crown of his head where it's thickest. her body tightens around his cock too, and she's pretty sure he's going to be sore where her heels have slid down to the small of his beck, digging in harder. but that's fair, honestly, because she's going to be sore, too. basically everywhere. ]
Yeah, yeah, yeah- [ it's possibly a step up from the way she's been "responding" to each of his thrusts with staccato uh, uh, uhs, but she isn't really all that clued into whether or not she's actually saying words at the moment, no. she's mostly focused on the fact that she can practically feel him in her guts every time he bottoms out, and that his chest hair adds a friction against the peaked buds of her nipples that she so wasn't expecting but could definitely get used to, and that her fingers have started to alternate between trying to squirm out from between his and holding on tighter. which is what usually happens when she's hit this point, edging along her first orgasm. there's an impatient part of her that wants to rush it, get her hand free so she can reach down and rub fast circles over her clit until she's coming, but she knows she doesn't actually need it. after their first few times together, they learned pretty quickly that whatever pace he's set that makes her start squirming like she is now is all she actually needs to get there. but knowing that doesn't mean she's not going to act needy and whine for it. ..right after she picks her head up enough to sink her teeth into his bottom lip and tug down so she can lick into his mouth, kissing him deep. ] Ooh, Steve! [ it's canon!!!! it's also why they rented a hotel room, right? so she's not trying to be quiet. ] Steve, you're gonna make me come, fuck, fuck, don't stop-
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or, scratch that. because Nancy yanks on a good handful of his hair, and it earns a ragged sound and a drawn out, slurred fuuuuuuuuuckkkk of approval. his perfect hair is going to have a fist print in it after this, thanks to the tugging and the sweat caught at the roots. Steve can't be bothered to care about how the incredible hold of his hairspray will only make the disaster worse when they come up for air. he can only care about the slide of his cock, keeping his pace sharp and hitting her in that spot just right that makes her toes curl. he's only got so long; there's so much pent up frustration and desire from not being with anyone, compounded by being with Nancy and not being with her like this, all to prove some stupid point. what was he thinking. jesus christ. that they have spent weeks not doing exactly this seems to be a complete moral failing, because god she feels so perfect. she's always felt like this. deeper, better, more than any girl he's ever been with. did they really prove anything by managing to keep their hands out of each other's pants all this time, or just make it harder for themselves when they finally let themselves go?
because it does feel difficult, to focus on the movement, and not blowing his load before they can get Nancy anywhere close. fingering her first and stretching her out was a slow-and-steady sort of thing, and now that they're off to the races Steve is desperate not to cum too quickly and have things be over when they've been waiting so long. and it sure as shit doesn't help when Nancy starts to wriggle and keen against him, because Steve remembers exactly what that means. remembering exactly how Nancy moves and sounds as she gets close to orgasm is a lot for him right now. biting, and telling him she's close, and exactly how loud and turned on and demanding she's being? that's a lot for him right now too. too much in fact. he feels it like a rubber band being snapped, breaking suddenly and sharply and a little painfully if you're on the wrong side of things. he's not, at least, but coming with stars behind his eyes makes him stall out a second and the lady literally just said don't stop!!! )
Shit, Nance, ( he gasps, hips jutting and spasming a little as the worst of his orgasm hits like a truck, threads of muscle in his back tight and his weight falling almost entirely on top of her as he fucks her jaggedly through it before he stalls, like a train stopped at the tracks. very much blowing the don't of don't stop. he feels liquid and warm and lost in her and it is tempting to just swim in all that ecstasy, but as the brunt of it clears his brain starts to work again. slowly coming back to life, piece by piece. ) Sorry, ( he moans, offering a messy smattering of kisses as his body remembers how to function and the important orders he was just delivered. he... didn't want to cum first. that wasn't quite how he wanted this to go. BUT. he's not soft yet, there's still time before he's completely useless. his strokes are more shallow, now, interested mostly in ending as deep inside her as he can manage and the satisfying pressure of them coming together, over and over and over, that seems to drive her completely mental. ) C'mon, baby. Please, Nance. Come on.
( he needs her to finish too. if his cock can't manage it then his mouth will. he is not going to lie around here waiting for his dick to work again to hear Nancy Wheeler orgasm for the first time in years. it just is not happening. )
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oh. some things really are impossible to forget, quite literally, because she definitely knows that tone. she knows what it means when his voice does that! when it sounds like his jaw's refusing to make way for the words to get out, and his breathing gets a little hiccupy, and she's split right down the middle on this one. she feels her body slink away from the tipping point just enough to make her squirm under him again, involuntary, in a way he'd probably tease her for in a different context, where he meant to pull her back. which is frustrating!! but the other half of her is still a bit delirious from how turned on she is, and the way he fucked into her those last couple of times before losing it and sinking down on top of her was more than enough to keep her from feeling anything close to actual frustration. because it turns out she wanted to see him lose it just as badly as he wanted to see her do the same.
her fingers relax their grip in his hair so she can scratch along his scalp, and she tips her head to the side to kiss his wrist, panting out a few breaths she didn't realize she was keeping in. she's trying to keep the whining and moving under him to a minimum because she knows it's going to be a moment - she's only been with two people but both of them seem to lose brain function right after they come, it's something she's just accepted - but it's hard. she was sofuckingclose.
and he knows it too, because he's apologizing. and she's trying to kiss him back properly, but her breathless smile is making it difficult, she knows - ] Shh, s'okay. [ - because it is, it's okay. she knows they're not done here, not by a long shot, and if anything? she knows he's about to make it up to her, sooo. what's left to forgive, really?
although she wasn't expecting him to make it up to her immediately, so that first rock of his hips makes her suck in a breath, face scrunching up a little bit. she's just a little confused?? ] You-? [ she's used to there being more downtime, honestly!! and the lack of said downtime isn't a bad thing, like, at all, but she just didn't think.......... but, he is, so! ] --oh, fuck, okay. Yeah. [ look, she's not about to question it. she might later, somehow, but right now she's trying to shove her thinky-brain aside so she can get back to where she was just a second ago. right back on the edge. and luckily it really does drive her insane, the shift in things. how he's pressed closer to her now, not even pulling his hips away very far before rocking back into her. she knows, realistically, that the way his cock fills her every time his hips hit flush against hers doesn't feel any different than it did before, but something is different. and it's not just the fact that he's giving her much more friction against her clit now, this way.
... okay, maybe that's a big part of it. but the buildup is more of a slow burn this time, has her looping her arm around his neck to hold on tight and keep him close, and she rocks her hips to match his rhythm as she gets closer again, almost without meaning to. maybe they still have some catching up to do before they're perfectly in sync, but some part of her must remember, because it's not long before she's tensing up under him again, jaw slack, her thighs tucking up higher and a little tighter around his waist again, shifting the angle.
there's also something about him begging her to come that's doing it for her, too. who'da thought? ]
Yeah, that's it, that's it. [ her hand is gripping his tight again, the fingers in his hair, too. like she has to hold onto something to keep from completely losing her mind. she's whining again, although she can't quite move around as much under him with the way he's pinning her to the bed, and that's adding something new and confusing and perfect to this, too. she cries when she finally comes, a sound that's almost a sob with relief, every muscle she has any control over tightening up, thighs trembling against his sides. she tries to keep moving on him as much as she can, but it's more of a grind than the same rocking from before. ] Sh-Shit, ohmygod. [ her palm flattens to settle at the back of his neck, squeezing as she shudders against him again, whimpering. but she resists relaxing beyond that just yet, heels digging into his lower back again. ] Stay. Just like this, c'mere. [ he's pretty much already laying on top of her, but she still winds her arm around him to drag him down more, wanting to feel him everywhere. her brain feels like cotton candy, too. in a good way, though. the best way. ]
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they've got a timeline, here. between what is left of being hard quickly turns into pushing rope. so his encore is distinctly more desperate than before, and it isn't like he'd been lacking on that front the first round. it's just she was so close. used to be they were pretty in sync, with these things. he could hold back just long enough, or they'd work her up first so getting her to crash through a finish was just a bit of fingers or maybe the back of his palm pressed hard against her clit. he knows the sounds she's making, the wild, uncomfortable way she's moving, the flush crawling up her neck and the pinpoint of her pupils, Steve knows she's close. he's not just going to call it quits before they get there, even if it isn't quite how he wanted their second first to go.
the problem before was expecting perfection, that they could just jump back into the thick of it without putting the time in. like running a marathon right after they got cleared to ditch the crutches. throwing that out the window, focusing on making the most of what they've got — maybe it's not perfect, maybe Foreigner isn't providing a soft crooning ambiance, maybe it isn't some first magical moment. to be fair their first time wasn't perfect either, and that was before a girl got munched in his pool. perfect is more or less impossible. making the best of being with Nancy again, well... that he can do. hell, it's pretty easy to do, when she still melts under his touch. still knows just how she likes to jut back and slide against him, knows how to hold herself in that spot that makes her body sing. it's sloppy and fraught and desperate and delightful. and in the end, it's enough. he feels it before it hits, the way the inner muscles of her thighs go tight and then shiver-shudder clench as she falls to pieces under him and around him all at once. )
Yes, just... just like that, Nancy. God you're so fucking — ( sexy? beautiful? everything he could imagine and more? yes. whatever he meant to articulate, he can't, especially as the exhaustion of completion hits. the movement can stop and he can just get lost in the afterglow, which is pretty afterglow-y, right now. used to be, Steve worried more, about laying on top of her. if anything it makes more sense to worry about it now than it did then, because he was a lot more tooth-picky in high school. that swimmer diet kicked his ass until he didn't have to bother anymore. there's a great deal more of him to bear down on her, now, it's just he couldn't care less. Nancy will whine if her legs start to fall asleep. she's a lot less fragile than she looks, and fragile she does look, sort of like one of those porcelain dolls his mom keeps in her closet only with a much more modern haircut. (some post nut thoughts are best to keep to oneself.) he can wind her close and be her heavy boy blanket at least long enough for their brains to turn back on again.
his mouth hurts from all the kissing. it's not a bad kind of sting. he still uses his teeth to catch a spot under her jaw close to her neck, that spot that always smells most like Nancy after they fuck. for important, not at all caveman reasons, he really likes that spot. his brain doesn't really have the capacity for coherent thought just yet, it just wants to double down in nancynancynancy. that spot always helps with that. having his mouth busy is a good way to keep the post sex i love you to himself. maybe it is obvious, at this point. he feels like the dumb dopey expression he wears when he looks at her sort of gives it away. still, holding onto that a little longer since they've technically only been dating again a few months? feels like a good call. )