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[keenely]

Really?

[ okay it's not like he can't keep things to himself just because she had a moment of, uhh, spilling her guts via text message a couple minutes ago, but still. ]

It was just one party, Steve.

[ she's not... offended offended? but she might be wondering where the emphasis is coming from ]

[bigboyvibes]

I'm not trying to attack you, Nance. I'm just saying don't over do it, ya know?

One party or not. Sounds like you're regretting a lot already.

[keenely]

I'm not
regretting a lot.
I'm not regretting anything.
I don't regret going to the party, and I don't regret making out with that guy. Or bailing on him ten minutes later.
Or
anything else we're talking about right now.

The only thing I might regret is accidentally texting you about it in the first place.

[bigboyvibes]

Right.
Sorry I assumed other wise.

Why? We aren't together or anything like that.

[keenely]

What? No, that's not
I regret it because now you're treating me like
I don't know
Like I'm on the verge of doing something stupid, or reckless, just because Jonathan and I broke up.
But I'm not.
I'm fine.

[ she sure sooounds fine. she's also assuming things now, too. it's fine. everything's fine. ]

[bigboyvibes]

I didn't say anything like that.

[Why must you be this way, Nancy?]

[keenely]

You implied it.

[bigboyvibes]

[He's dragging both hands down his face in frustration. Why does she have to jump to assumptions and be so damn stubborn?]

I wasn't implying anything, Nancy.

[keenely]

What were you going to say before? When you started with "I guess I just-"?

[bigboyvibes]

It's nothing.

[keenely]

Steve.

[bigboyvibes]

Nancy.

[keenely]

Okay, fine.

I'll talk to you later, I guess.

[ when she's feeling a little less jumbled up! because this is so not how she wanted to tell him about jonathan. and she doesn't actually know how she would have wanted to? but "not like this" is a safe guess. ugh. ]

[bigboyvibes]

Why didn't you want to tell me? About everything that's been going on.

The party. The making out with random dude.

[keenely]

Because!

[ ... she really shouldn't just leave it there. she wants to! but she knows she shouldn't. so she won't. ..probably. no, definitely-! ]

Because I just knew you would worry, because the last time I got really drunk was at that stupid party my Junior year, but this isn't like that at all. This was messy, and embarrassing, and meaningless. Less than meaningless, if that's even possible. And I didn't want you to think
I don't know
anything, basically?
Because I didn't want you to know.

[bigboyvibes]

Again I don't understand why you didn't want me to know.

But alright

[keenely]

And again, it's because I didn't want you to think you had anything to be worried about, just because I went to a party.

[bigboyvibes]

I'm not allowed to worry about you?

[keenely]

No, I mean, of course you can?
I just didn't want to give you a reason to.

[bigboyvibes]

That's going to be impossible.

[keenely]

You're impossible.

[ did she just, sort of, "no, YOU are" him? yep ]

[bigboyvibes]

You're one to talk.

[keenely]

I don't see how I'm the one being impossible right now.

[bigboyvibes]

[You two do this to yourselves.

There has been something nipping at the back of his mind since this conversation started. A lingering guilt that's built up tight within his stomach. ]

Does any of this have anything to do with what happened a few nights ago?

[keenely]

[ there's a bit of a wait before her reply comes through, but only because she was trying to think ]

Any of what..? No? No.
I'm not 100% sure I know what you mean.