[He doesn't want her to feel awful or regret certain choices she's made. She's made them for certain reasons and if one thing he's learned about Nancy Wheeler is she's both determined and stubborn. He doesn't want to admit that their relationship was possibly doomed from the start despite how it slowly started to become unhinged.
They wouldn't have worked. Plan and simple right?
He doesn't blame her for anything, especially the end of their relationship. That wouldn't be fair and honestly it would be selfish. He chooses not to remember the events that night at the party regardless of how they haunt him from time to time. He could have easily blamed it on the alcohol, claim she was talking out of her head.
Only her words held some truth to them.
What matters is he's learned and grown from it. At least he hopes he has. Maybe Nancy was just better off on her own? Perhaps they all were? ]
You don't have to apologize, Nance. I'm sorry if I overstepped my boundaries. Its none of my fucking business anyways I guess I just-
Easy on the alcohol, yeah? Especially if you're by yourself.
[ honestly, if there was ever a time he did overstep, it would have been during the talk they had as they made their way through the upside down to the creel house, but even that somehow... didn't feel like he did something wrong. maybe it should have. she has- had a boyfriend, at the time. but instead it just sort of... shook her up. in a good way. a good, confusing way.
but now totally isn't the time for that. ]
What? No, I'm not drinking now, that was last night. And it was at a party. I don't plan on drinking alone.
[ okay it's not like he can't keep things to himself just because she had a moment of, uhh, spilling her guts via text message a couple minutes ago, but still. ]
It was just one party, Steve.
[ she's not... offended offended? but she might be wondering where the emphasis is coming from ]
I'm not regretting a lot. I'm not regretting anything. I don't regret going to the party, and I don't regret making out with that guy. Or bailing on him ten minutes later. Or anything else we're talking about right now.
The only thing I might regret is accidentally texting you about it in the first place.
What? No, that's not I regret it because now you're treating me like I don't know Like I'm on the verge of doing something stupid, or reckless, just because Jonathan and I broke up. But I'm not. I'm fine.
[ she sure sooounds fine. she's also assuming things now, too. it's fine. everything's fine. ]
[ when she's feeling a little less jumbled up! because this is so not how she wanted to tell him about jonathan. and she doesn't actually know how she would have wanted to? but "not like this" is a safe guess. ugh. ]
[ ... she really shouldn't just leave it there. she wants to! but she knows she shouldn't. so she won't. ..probably. no, definitely-! ]
Because I just knew you would worry, because the last time I got really drunk was at that stupid party my Junior year, but this isn't like that at all. This was messy, and embarrassing, and meaningless. Less than meaningless, if that's even possible. And I didn't want you to think I don't know anything, basically? Because I didn't want you to know.
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They wouldn't have worked. Plan and simple right?
He doesn't blame her for anything, especially the end of their relationship. That wouldn't be fair and honestly it would be selfish. He chooses not to remember the events that night at the party regardless of how they haunt him from time to time. He could have easily blamed it on the alcohol, claim she was talking out of her head.
Only her words held some truth to them.
What matters is he's learned and grown from it. At least he hopes he has. Maybe Nancy was just better off on her own? Perhaps they all were? ]
You don't have to apologize, Nance. I'm sorry if I overstepped my boundaries.
Its none of my fucking business anyways I guess I just-
Easy on the alcohol, yeah? Especially if you're by yourself.
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You guess you just what?
[ honestly, if there was ever a time he did overstep, it would have been during the talk they had as they made their way through the upside down to the creel house, but even that somehow... didn't feel like he did something wrong. maybe it should have. she has- had a boyfriend, at the time. but instead it just sort of... shook her up. in a good way. a good, confusing way.
but now totally isn't the time for that. ]
What? No, I'm not drinking now, that was last night.
And it was at a party. I don't plan on drinking alone.
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[Well!
Maybe he's said a bit too much or maybe not enough?]
I meant watch it on the alcohol period. Hangovers can be a real bitch.
Good.
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[ okay it's not like he can't keep things to himself just because she had a moment of, uhh, spilling her guts via text message a couple minutes ago, but still. ]
It was just one party, Steve.
[ she's not... offended offended? but she might be wondering where the emphasis is coming from ]
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One party or not. Sounds like you're regretting a lot already.
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regretting a lot.
I'm not regretting anything.
I don't regret going to the party, and I don't regret making out with that guy. Or bailing on him ten minutes later.
Or
anything else we're talking about right now.
The only thing I might regret is accidentally texting you about it in the first place.
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Sorry I assumed other wise.
Why? We aren't together or anything like that.
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I regret it because now you're treating me like
I don't know
Like I'm on the verge of doing something stupid, or reckless, just because Jonathan and I broke up.
But I'm not.
I'm fine.
[ she sure sooounds fine. she's also assuming things now, too. it's fine. everything's fine. ]
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[Why must you be this way, Nancy?]
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I wasn't implying anything, Nancy.
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I'll talk to you later, I guess.
[ when she's feeling a little less jumbled up! because this is so not how she wanted to tell him about jonathan. and she doesn't actually know how she would have wanted to? but "not like this" is a safe guess. ugh. ]
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The party. The making out with random dude.
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[ ... she really shouldn't just leave it there. she wants to! but she knows she shouldn't. so she won't. ..probably. no, definitely-! ]
Because I just knew you would worry, because the last time I got really drunk was at that stupid party my Junior year, but this isn't like that at all. This was messy, and embarrassing, and meaningless. Less than meaningless, if that's even possible. And I didn't want you to think
I don't know
anything, basically?
Because I didn't want you to know.
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But alright
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I just didn't want to give you a reason to.
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[ did she just, sort of, "no, YOU are" him? yep ]
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